A Strong Foundation
Everything we do rests on the foundations we build, whether it’s our intimate partnerships, friendships, careers, or our dreams. As I have been watching the leveling of dirt, blocks being laid, and cement being poured for our new addition, I can’t help but notice the metaphor for so many aspects of life. Without this strong, sturdy, and level base, there is no integrity and collapse is a likelihood.
A BIG STEP FORWARD= FEAR
This new space will hold my office and a beautiful yoga studio- my business, for REAL! I’ve seen this structure in my mind for over a year, but I’m not gonna lie, when I saw that it was really happening, the mortar was hardening and hours of labor had been spent, I wanted to yell, “Wait! Stop! I changed my mind!” It felt way too BIG. The thoughts and questions taunted me- “Who am I to get this beautiful building? What if I make a zillion mistakes? What if I fail? What if no one comes and the space sits empty? I don’t want to disappoint my family.” The fear was taking over!
I didn’t share this with everyone, because I knew it would sound crazy! It’s not like it’s a quick, spontaneous process, like there wasn’t time to think and put a halt on things if it didn’t feel right a long time ago. If you’ve ever been a part of a building project, you know it takes a ton of planning, designing, drawings, calculations, deliberation, approval of every detail from the city inspectors, materials ordered, and people power. But in spite of all that, here I was questioning it all, AND it was too late to stop! It WAS happening. My husband believed in me, my friends were cheering me on, and my children were proud and excited for me. Then I remembered.
THE WORK
I remembered that I had done the work. I had been laying that firm foundation for years! A foundation built on many hours of yoga practice, study and teaching, psychology classes, holistic health classes, coaching courses, business school, life experience and my own self-study. And even more importantly, this was all perpetuated by my deepest Truth and calling- I want to support and guide people to living their best possible life, in body, mind, and spirit. That’s what I needed to rest on!
Awhile back, when I began my first level of coaching certification, I was pouring out my doubts and fears to a classmate and she said, “When you have been given a gift, it is your obligation to use it.” That really hit me. It’s not ok to sit back and play small or even follow a path that’s not meant for you. According to the Bhagavad Gita, a famous Hindu scripture, “It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else’s life with perfection.” Wow! How many people care about the perfect part and bury the part that doesn’t fit?! But it will always start to fester like a sliver in your finger, because IT DOESN’T BELONG!
IMPERFECTION AND DOING IT ANYWAY
So this is what I came to:
I deeply Trust in the solid, strong foundation I have carefully and intentionally built.
It won’t be perfect.
I’m doing it anyway.
Let the building recommence!
And that is what I want for you- build the foundation based on your your truth, your calling, and despite all the fears, “what-ifs”, and imperfections, then trust that you will be Supported! If you are going through a similar situation, I would love to help you through it because something magical is waiting for you! Why waste another minute?!